I've fallen down a hole.
No work, no seeds, an economy in ruins... I can't seem to pull myself out. I've been super-miserable for the last two days, although I have been re-reading Jennings Goes to School in my quiet moments which has been making me laugh, and has placed terms like "super-miserable" and "hairy ruin" into my brain.
I'm supposed to be working on my third major nut design, or pitching nut ideas to national nut stores, or applying to the Nut Council for seeds, or doing any one of a hundred getting-going ideas from my To Do list, but it all feels pretty hopeless.
I know I should be trying to stay positive but it's a while now since I had anything to feel positive about. It's The Nut Festival this week. This is my fourth major nut festival since my second nut design, and during previous ones I've been hyper-aware of when they started and finished, jumping every time the phone rang, watching publications like The Nut in some vague hope that my nut design might be "talk of the festival"... but this time I'm barely aware it's happening. I'm not expecting any news.
The only good thing on the horizon is the Russian nut launch in a few months, but I can't even feel positive about that.
Oh 'eck, this isn't helping. I need something to pick me up - this is just making me worse.
Right. Something utterly frivolous coming up.