Thursday, 23 April 2009

Slough of Despond

I've fallen down a hole.

No work, no seeds, an economy in ruins... I can't seem to pull myself out. I've been super-miserable for the last two days, although I have been re-reading Jennings Goes to School in my quiet moments which has been making me laugh, and has placed terms like "super-miserable" and "hairy ruin" into my brain.

I'm supposed to be working on my third major nut design, or pitching nut ideas to national nut stores, or applying to the Nut Council for seeds, or doing any one of a hundred getting-going ideas from my To Do list, but it all feels pretty hopeless.

I know I should be trying to stay positive but it's a while now since I had anything to feel positive about. It's The Nut Festival this week. This is my fourth major nut festival since my second nut design, and during previous ones I've been hyper-aware of when they started and finished, jumping every time the phone rang, watching publications like The Nut in some vague hope that my nut design might be "talk of the festival"... but this time I'm barely aware it's happening. I'm not expecting any news.

The only good thing on the horizon is the Russian nut launch in a few months, but I can't even feel positive about that.

Oh 'eck, this isn't helping. I need something to pick me up - this is just making me worse.

Right. Something utterly frivolous coming up.


bedshaped said...

Ouch. I feel for you. I really do.
Why oh why are there so many wankers out there (am I allowed to say wankers here?) who don't think twice about stepping all over other people. They shit on others like it's as natural to them as breathing.
It does nothing to help build confidence in other people. And as for trusting them....well, that boat sailed long ago.

I hope you see some kind of resolution to this. My only advice....make sure everything gets recorded somehow, just in case you need to provide it for any legal shenanigens. I hope it doesn't come to that.
Best of luck!

Beleaguered Squirrel said...

How sweet of you Bedshaped, thank you.

[I've had to edit this comment for the same boring sensible reasons I edited the original post]