Wednesday, 27 April 2011

All New Again

I left my job the other week. I am currently jobless and don't much care - I am taking time off while my son is on school holiday, despite the fact that my partner is also on a reduced income and I have no idea what I'm doing next.

It was getting so corrosive there. I'm going to continue in the New Career for the time-being, and am hoping it was the workplace rather than the job itself, but there is a possibility that I'll end up having to give it up altogether. The sense of relief is immense, and the optimism is returning. I'm enjoying just living from day to day and spending time with my children, not to mention getting some sleep and reading some books.

I was pushed as much as I jumped; I wasn't really welcome to stay. I have a million* possible reasons for why I didn't get on there, and of course "I'm bloody incompetent" is one of them. But I'll never know for sure and I'd rather look forward than dwell on it. The irony is that I've already been invited to talk to people entering into this career about my experiences. I think I might become an Expert in How To Be Inexpert. That would be a laugh.

If anyone has any work, let me know.

*Oh all right then, 999,876.


Megan said...

Good for you! It sounds by far the healthiest move. Having stayed - far too long - in a place that has gone from tolerable (with quite nice people) to horrific (still with quite nice people, but unfortunately none of them in any position to do away with the horrific) I can not only sympathize but deeply respect your courage to do what is right and best for you.

Definitely time for an upturn, don't you think?

Lisa Rullsenberg said...

I don't have any work I can offer, but yay for you walking away. Horrible what some workplaces can do to one's self-esteem (and I speak from the shared position of someone who frequently doubts I have anything to have any self-esteem about).

May lovely things happen to you and yours and sufficient money appear on the table to keep things going (this can be surprisingly less than one anticipates). Hugs and happiness: you deserve far better.

Jen said...

Wow. Being brave enough to hang in there was one thing but brave enough to call it quits? That takes guts. But I can tell from these few words that it was the right thing for you. If I was a psychic (I know more than you think!!) I'd say hold your breath: something unexpected will lurch forward into the gap you've created. I smiled when I read your post. You've done the right thing; you'll be grand. I feel it.

Some Chilean Woman said...

Sometimes you just need to make that jump. I have 'jumped' a couple of times in my life, and though I was scared, everything turned out beautiful in the end.

Best wishes!

HelenMWalters said...

I think you've made a very brave decision. Good on you. And here's to the future being full of good things.

Sue Guiney said...

I'm sure this must have been the right thing to do, though also certainly difficult. Let's hear it for whatever the future holds!

Andrea said...

I think the sense of relief you are feeling right now speaks volumes about whether or not it was the right decision!
Good for you.

Lemonpillows said...

Good for you! I have also walked out on a job in the past and it was the best thing I ever did! Good luck with whatever you want to do next :)

Alice Turing said...

Yay, thanks everyone.

Jen: "Wow. Being brave enough to hang in there was one thing but brave enough to call it quits? That takes guts."
This is funny, because I understand what you say and it makes a lot of sense, but it does make me giggle. Purely because I was told I was being brave when I hung on in there and kept going despite all the crap, and now people say I am brave for having the courage to leave. It's a win-win scenario, innit! :)